It's my little red wagon and I've got to pull it...

Lately I have been keeping a running tally of how much things are costing me, and it kind of makes me ill. In June, we increased our income by 100% and still feels like money is flying out the window faster than I can count it.

We've also got some pretty huge expenses coming up:

• Jesse's student loan grace period is ending.
• He is also taking a trip to Pennsylvania in November.
• I'm hoping to start school in November which will cost me exorbitant amounts of money AND time.
• I want to fit another miniature Moses in at some point in the next two years or so.
• Not to mention the rest of the monthly bills

We'll be OK...I'm not necessarily worried about how to pay for it all...just annoyed that I have to (gee, that doesn't sound entitled does it?). Life just costs money and that's that. There are a lot of things that families can do to cut expenses...we try to stay informed, and we do what we can. Believe me, I'm pro at "needs versus wants." My angst about it is really just something I think I have to learn to deal with.

I truly am grateful for good advice from close friends and family, help from our loved ones who have graciously accepted our requests for favors to help save us a little (or a lot) of money while we live wwwwway out in the middle of nowhere, and the Lord's infinite tender mercies on our behalf.

And really, when it comes right down to it, I have more than most, and just because I don't have money to throw at everything I think I might like to have, there is MUCH to be thankful for.

I just wonder if there will ever be a time when I won't be worried about money... Probably not.

At least I've got Jesse and Oliver J. to make things fun, regardless of how rich or poor we are...